#all i'm saying! is that jame and tori care about their people SO MUCH!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I FINISHED EPISODE SEVEN AND AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

😭😭😭😭💔❤️ ISAAAAAAC 😭 MY BOYYY <3333 HE DOES NOT DESERVE THIS ❤️❤️😭 I LOVE HIM!! I hope that art piece helped though :')). Also poor James 😭 xd. But hey at least he's supportive (though the way I was like :'O and then he said "you just haven't found the right person yet" and I went -.- xD. Except a little more like sigh raise eyebrow with a bit of a smile bc :/ you were so close xDD). But seriously Isaac 😭😭❤️❤️ my guy. I love him. I hope he figures it out soon :( :')) <3333.

TAO AND ELLLLLE!!!! AAAAHHHHHHH :'DDD. The GROWTH from Tao, can we talk about that?!!! He :D! I mean he was definitely thrown off at first but that's okay :')). Then he was supportive and lovely and your honor I love him 😭. And ELLE!! OUR GIRL GOT ACCEPTED :D!!! AND HAD HER ART DISPLAYED!! HECK YEAH GIRL :DDD!! AND ALSO THE ART WAS T H E M I'M NOT OKAY 😭😭❤️❤️🥰.

Also, everyone else at that exhibition: :D- YOO those are the people!!

(like the ones in the picture lol)

Anyway I love them your honor thank you <3 xD

SLAYYY NICK GO OFF!! TO YOUR DAD AND YOUR BROTHER AND EVERYBODY :DDD!!!

AND SLAYYY CHARLIE GO OFF!! TO BEN YOU SLAYED :DDD!!!

Also gosh that DINNER. Was (yes that period's on purpose I'm making it clear it's not "that dinner was", but just "it was" without the it) the most awkward thing I've ever seen xD. I mean not really but it was pretty bad xD.

Just imagining though lol like,

Nick: I don't care what you think

Charlie's parents: *trying to look as far away as they can*

Nick's mom: You don't have a right!

Charlie's parents: wow yeah this for is really good huh, yeah. . .

XDD I just can't lol

Anyway xD!

But AYYYY NICK DID IT HE CAME OUT AND EVERYTHING WENT OKAY I MEAN LIKE. IN THE END xD :D!!! 🥰🥰

Also Tori GO. OFF!! The grab of David's arm and the kick of his phone xD, girl SLAY!!! We love her so much in this house 🥰🥰🥰. Also her and Charlie playing video games was really sweet :'DD

Anyway I am sorry your dad and brother suck Nick <333

I do hate your brother though so there's that 🥰🥰 punched the bed repeatedly during the dinner scene and of course whisper screamed my head off <33

And AAAAHHHHHHH Charlie not eating much :')) I noticed I during the meal and then the brought it UP too 😭😭💔. Help I'm not okay <333. We can get through this :')). Me and them xdd. Them all, surrounding this, lol.

Also Nick looking up eating disorders 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️ it broke me but it was really sweet <33 he's worried about Charlie :'(( (kinda the reason for the sweet and kinda a separate statement, it's also sweet for like trying to understand reasons and whatnot)

And AAAHHHHHH NICK AND CHARLIE ARE GOING TO PROM TOGETHER :DDD listen I love them so much <333 and all of the so much :D!!

Also Imogen so sorry you're still the token straight xD but slay for you Sahar :D

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DARCYYYY 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔.

HONEYYYY!!! I'M SO SORRY AND ALSO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Y'all as soon as I saw the purple stuff around the door I died :') help I'm not okay <333 but more importantly help Darcy :((( worry about her before me D':

Gotta say though her outfit slays so hard and AAHHHH everybody helping to pay for it :'DDD <333 I love them all so much. Also her and Tara were being ADORABLE!! And Tara's mom was hilarious in that first scene lol xD mood.

Anyway AAAHHHHHHHH MY POOR GIRL 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️💔❤️. I really hope she's okay (I mean as okay as she can be) :((( ik there's other stuff but whatever honey my love go to Tara's <333

My poor babey 😭💔❤️

Anyway, amaaazing episode, I love them all so much <3333 🥰🥰❤️ I'm also not ready for the next episode :')) 😭

And awww, the last episode 😭😭❤️💔. This was the second to last episode :'(( :')). Should I have split it into two days to savor it more? Maybe. Did I? Absolutely not lol. Anyway, this season is so good and I'm gonna miss I so much xdd <3. Immediately lol. Especially if there's a cliffhanger or something (which I feel like I might've seen someone mention but it was just a glimpse so they may have been talking about another episode lol).

ANYWAY!!! Lovely 🥰🥰🥰. NOW ONTO EPISODE EIGHT!!!

[words-writ-in-starlight]

Jame/Tori. 12 and 16. Happy Birthday! Wishing you a year full of understanding medical professionals.

SAME!!!  Anyway, last night I was reading God Stalk out loud to my partners, because we are all very adorable, and I almost paused the chapter to wax adoring about Jame and Tori because Jame made an idle comment about not understanding how someone could decide not to support their brother, no matter what their brother did.  So you get to go first.

12) What first changes when it starts getting serious?

The first thing that Jame notices as a change, a real change, isn’t something anyone else would notice.  Tori kissed her, and didn’t run--kissed her, and held her face between his beautiful scarred hands, and rested their foreheads together like they did when they were children, like she was safety to him again, and that was--that was new, but she didn’t really think of it as a change.  Everyone else sees it as a change, but not Jame.  She thinks that Tori might not see it that way either.  It wasn’t a change, it was a return to the right shape of things.

The first thing she notices as a change isn’t until a few nights later, when she collapses in a chair and falls asleep.  The dream is pleasantly nonsensical at first--a nightmare, but a real nightmare, which is a relief, of dancing in the Res aB’tyrr in front of the randon council, while her feet bleed and her balance slips on the slick tabletop.  She realizes she’s dreaming when she stumbles, but dances on as if a puppet on strings, until finally the dance ends, and she bows, and takes her bloodied feet and her weariness up the stairs to the loft.  

It’s her brother’s study, at the top of the stairs, and he’s there, sitting in the chair by the fire with one leg crossed over his knee and frowning in concentration, and he blinks at her as she stumbles through the mirror and lands clumsily on the floor.  She braces herself to watch horror flicker over his face--sees the moment of instinctive alarm--and then he asks, “What are you wearing?”

“What?” Jame asks, blank, and then says, “Oh.  It’s a dancer’s costume.  What are you doing?”

Tori’s lips twist briefly and he says, “Trying to sleep.”

“Are you hiding in here on purpose?”

He looks uneasy, almost--apologetic.  “I just need some rest.”  And then he hesitates, and then Tori says, “You can stay.  There’s another chair.”

“What?” Jame repeats.

“I can keep us both here for a while, I think,” Tori says.  “You look tired.”

Jame is nodding before she thinks it through, and collapses in the chair across from Tori--the dreamscape can’t manufacture pain or weariness the way the soulscape can, but she is tired.  She hasn’t slept in days, and she’s all too aware that she’s as likely to wander out the door into a disaster as she is into a restful night.  And Tori’s study--the dream he’s made for himself, a shelter from visions and souls--is warm and quiet, with the fire and the old chairs, and with her brother.  It’s--nice.

Tori offers her a faint smile, and takes his foot off his knee and stretches his legs out in front of him, mirroring her, so that their ankles cross in front of the fire.

16) When the zombie apocalypse comes, how do they cope together?

I genuinely do not think they would bat an eye at a zombie apocalypse.  They essentially grew up in one.  Honestly I think they would be THE clutch people to have in charge, because they are very good at this, before Jame and Tori were dancers or fighters or leaders or soldiers or anything, they were dealing with the undead.

The first thing Jame, in northern Tagmeth, does upon seeing the first haunt in the Riverlands is to sit down with a map and every report she can barter, beg, or borrow, and draws out the advancing line.  She gathers her people and gives them exacting instructions, on how to kill the dead, and she sends a letter to Mount Alban that simply says I need help, cousin, meet me at Gothregor, and she sends out scouts for one week.  At the end of the week, she rolls up her maps, tells everyone to pack everything they want to keep, and takes her people south.

She arrives at her brother’s doorstep unannounced, and the Knorth Kendar are getting used to the way their Highborn do things but also they hate the way their Highborn do things.  It’s not really right for their lordan to show up with every single one of her people in tow and demand to see her brother now.  But, then, most of them have served their lord for years now, and they know that hard-eyed silver stare, and no one stops her from storming out to the barracks where Torisen is going over their census with Rowan.

Tori is already looking at the door when Jame opens it, and he says, “Jame,” and Rowan says, “Lordan,” and Jame says, “I have bad news, and I think we’re the first ones to get it, so we need a plan if we’re going to save our people.”

And Jame thinks it says something kind, about her brother, that even at his worst, he cared about their people to the point of desperation.  And he’s not at his worst anymore, and so she’s not surprised when he gestures to the chair at his other side, facing Rowan, and says, “Of course, what happened?”

[vicky-shitposts]

reflections

19th Feb 2021,

last night was crazy. me and zoe finally made up, and when i was telling her about my giant pyramid project in minecraft, she said she's going to move into it with me - girl really likes to keep me on my toes. she also wore a beanie and a flannel and the gay inside me exploded. had to remind myself that i am, in fact, not in love with her. finally got around to watching Name Of The Doctor too, but it was really hard to see it through my crying; totally worth it, and seeing Walter Simeon hold the Doctor's face uh, did something for me. Phoebe was also kind enough to check out all of Inner Mechanism for me and was a total darling about the whole thing. they also "green lit" the project for me, so now it's all systems go to add the final perfecting touches. first proper teaser went on my instagram: "this is my sacrifice, this is my exile". might do the second one later today, "watch this space..."

sipping coffee, painting my nails black and watching interviews. about two hours ago i was lost in tiktok, just scrolling mindlessly with not a single hope or care in the world. it was really nice and felt like a trance. a year ago today, the world was normal and calm and i was in wales. i went to see my best friend at the time, as well as her girlfriend, but the entire fiasco turned into a shambles; in short, i just felt like i wasn't wanted there after completely running myself down and investing my own time and money to get there. i stopped speaking to her a few weeks after as a result, but she came back out of nowhere last month and messaged me for some reason. i haven't got to the bottom of why or what happened, part of me is too scared to hear the truth. i haven't spoken to her in a while. i have an unread message from her, so i think i should drop a line and say "a year ago today i was with you, you were with your ex and the world was stable".

finally read some more of my fucking book at last!! did so while listening to Who Am I? - Pale Waves yet again. enjoyed it a lot more this time around. was speaking to Lyndon a few days back, saying how i often get bored with new albums around halfway through; Who Am I? is only 33 minutes long mind you, which doesn't constitute an album runtime in my "professional" opinion - i've made some money from my music which constitutes me as professional, right?? back to my point at hand. it flowed a lot better this time and it didn't leave me feeling bored by the second half. it flew by and again was a perfect reading soundtrack, thought i did prefer it the last time when it was executed within a moving vehicle. a friend of mine called James also checked out my Underworld single yesterday, said he really liked it and loved the beat, which really meant a lot.

lego set arrived and oh god, is it beautiful. it's so big!! and it comes with a couple other things beside the main rocket itself; it's so cute, so cool and so worth the money!! Iron Lady also came today, so once the night crawls in i'll be sitting down to watch it. who's gunna take bets on if im gunna cry or not?? but lyndon did say if i cry over a Margaret Thatcher film, it makes me a tory - rahhhh that's actually so peak fam :///

i can see why Meryl Streep was highly regarded in The Iron Lady. but while she does play the part extremely well, i couldn't help but feel so upset and distressed by the film. i'm a history student and hear about things in passing, like the cold war and the falklands war; none of which have never been taught to me at school, and therefore i have no clue of any detail concerning them. after seeing this film, i can only assume that thatcher had a huge role to play in the falklands war. to see so much terror, death and bloodshed under the reign of one woman?? this is the past history of the place that i was born and live in, and it disgraces me. this was supposed to be about the life of a woman but with so many explosions, acts of terror, stock footage of people fighting police officers, buildings on fire and people bleeding on the street... what have i come from?? this woman served under the same party as we have here and now, and it made me start to think. what if people retaliated against boris johnson in the same way?? what if his second in command was blown up, or a hotel he stayed at was bombed?? it's scary to think the power that people have, and when they upset the public, how hard they fight back. and if thatcher was the reason for all of those explosions and deaths, then i feel ashamed. i can understand why people despise her and her party. were discussing the idea of "what is history?" in one of our first history lessons last year, and we concluded that it is to record the errors of the past to ensure that we don't make the same mistakes in the present or the future. to learn from our past for a better future. i hope that above all, we have learnt from our past and never experience anything similar. i couldn't handle it in the film, so god only knows how i would take the real thing. but i can tell you here and now - hope is the only thing keeping me going.

i want to conclude today with some quotes that i have recently discovered and fell in love with: "the name you choose is like a promise" - Doctor Who; "i love being called a bastard. it somehow implies that the most heinous thing i have done is exist" - Lord Byron.

[eclecticash22]

1. I don't use any of them, but I have used Spotify and Pandora before, and preferred Pandora.

2. It's a work in progress. I just cleaned out my closet and have small boxes of trash in my floor.

3. Hazel (brown/green)

4. Yes because it's not common, but also no because it's not common 😂

5. Single and READY TO FRIGGIN MINGLE, IT'S BEEN MY WHOLE 19 YEARS OF LIVING

6. Unique but boring

7. Naturally it's a dirty blonde/light brown situation, but I previously had it dyed a light blonde so it's all messy and growing out at the moment.

8. I don't drive. I have a license, but no car.

9. Lots of places, lol. Walmart, Burlington, Torrid, BoxLunch, Dollar Tree, and Food City are the frequently visited ones.

10. Laidback but still dressy? I have a lot of cardigans but I lair them with ripped jeans and converse. Lately I've been experimenting with t-shirts and shorts.

11. This one! I can be myself, and I enjoy it very much.

12. Twin size, but wishing very much for a king

13. One 😊

14. That's tough. I think either outside of Los Angeles or in northern Kentucky/Southern Ohio

15. Any that make me look cute 😂

16. Elf, but that's the only brand I've get tried because I'm broke and it's cheap.

17. On average like, 5 times a week. However, I'm working a farm this week so it's wayyyy more often.

18. Supernatural and/or The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina (Netflix counts, right?)

19. 9 1/2 wide, but wide shoes are hard to find so really a 10-11

20. 5'7"

21. Sneakers, but sandals would be great with the weather we've been having.

22. Nah, I tried it and people were rude and I felt uncomfortable. My fat ass works out at home when I'm able to.

23. Okay, so 1. We go to a carnival and just have a nice time. Eat the junk food and drink lemonade and hang out until late at night. OR 2. A museum date with a picnic before/afterwards, and possibly star gazing as well. Idk, too much to ask for? Lmao

24. Oof, I got paid today. I'm not gonna share that info, but I didn't get paid a lot 😂

25. White with black stripes and a grey/blue toe and heel area

26. Two, one big one small

27. I do odd jobs, like housesitting, help musicians with music equipment, yard work, etc. But in August I start a desk job at school.

28. Oh? Best friends, seven. I'm blessed in that department.

29. It was an accident, but I was getting these texts from random men because there was a mix up on a dating site I guess. Anyway, i got one with a phone number and it said call me anytime sweetie, and I told them no way they're freaks. But it was my grandma using the first name James (my grandpa's name, also no last name or anything in the text) and I apologized immediately after I found out and I feel so bad about it to this day (8 years ago)

30. Right now, Cherry Merlot from Bath and Body Works. I also have the lotion.

31. Mason, Nathan, William

32. Luna, Sophia, Julia

33. Forever Robin Williams, but I also love Will Smith

34. Sandra Bullock

35. Tom Holland, Jensen Ackles, and Alex Calvert 😍

36. The Lost Boys or Peter Pan

37. I don't, and I wish I did. But my favorite book is If I Stay. So much to be taken from that book.

38. Brains. Hands down. I don't care if you have money. I care that you're a good person and that you have a good personality.

39. Knuckles as well as Bashlyn

40. Let's just narrow it down to ER visits and say twice.

41. Ahhh, 10? Monster by Imagine Dragons, I'm Still Standing by Elton John, Dear No One by Tori Kelly, Ms. Hyde by Halestorm, Sweet but Psycho by Ava Max, One Step Ahead by A Great Big World, Fall in Line by Christina Aguilera, Sober by Demi Lovato, You Deserve Better by James Arthur, and Human by Jon Bellion

42. Yes, birth control.

43. Combination

44. Being unhappy with my life; Failing in life

45. I'm unsure, tbh

46. Down and wavy (my natural hair)

47. Average sized apartment

48. I don't have just one. I have a bunch of women and men I look up to that I aspire to be like.

49. "[Your outfit is/You look] Cute"

50. "It is adorable, it is a little wide up top but it suits him 😊"

51. Like, 7? My dad got mad and told me he wasn't real

52. A Jeep!! I want one so bad

53. Don't breathe it into my face, don't try to get me to smoke, and don't smoke directly next to my niece and nephew. Otherwise, I have 0 problem with it.

54. I do, I do!

55. Psychologist (just unsure of what kind)

56. Idk, I just want a big yard and a decent sized house.

57. No, but other people did. So if it were up to me, maybe?

58. When I spend time in the sun!

59. Yep!

60. Like, 700-800

61. Probably. I grew up in a redneck town, was taught by my dads family to do that stuff, and my family owns property with woods on it.

62. Absolutely!

63. WENDY'S, ON MY GOD WENDY'S

64. I don't use dipping sauce, but if I do it's ranch or honey mustard

65. Random stuff. T-shirts and shorts, tank tops and flannel pajama pants, sometimes leggings and a comfy tank top dress.

66. Nope, we never had those in school.

67. Singing, writing, drawing, photography, researching literally anything, and listening to music. Also cleaning.

68. Not well, but I sure can try!

69. I play a little guitar, but I mostly sing.

70. Aside from local bands, it was Demi Lovato in Cincinnati, Ohio in about 2015-2016. She took Ariana Garners place in the MLB All-star Concert

71. Tea

72. 💁 I've never tried either one

73. Yeah 😊

74. KW

75. I intend to. But I'm not planning anything 100%

76. I'm not sure. I get compliments in yellow, but I also get lots of compliments in neon blues and pastel colors.

77. Both of my grandpas

78. I sleep in the living room because I'm afraid of the upstairs if my house at night. But when I have slept in thwre, lights on and door closed.

79. I do!

80. People who refuse to help themselves; People who are overly dependent with no actual reason for doing so, other than they just don't want to do it for themselves.

81. My dad

82. Cookies and Cream

83. Regular

84. Chocolate

85. A floral shirt that looks kinda faded

86. My niece and nephew

87. Shy when you first meet me, but give it sometime and I'm actually outgoing

88. The only person who has ever played with my hair is the guy that used me to get his ex back, and at the time I liked it but now I cringe thinking about him doing it, so idk.

89. Like, two of them, out of 20+ neighbors.

90. At night and sometimes in the morning

91. No

92. No, I've been afraid to because of an allergy that runs in my family

93. Wendy's chicken nuggets

94. "I'm still standing better than I ever did. Looking like a true survivor. Feeling like a little kid. And I'm still standing after all the time. Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind."

95. Early summer, or late winter

96. Night

97. Milk chocolate

98. April or October

99. Aries

100. Uh, I think my mom?

Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

is your room messy or clean?

what color are your eyes?

do you like your name? why?

what is your relationship status? 

describe your personality in 3 words or less

what color hair do you have?

what kind of car do you drive? color?

where do you shop?

how would you describe your style?

favorite social media account

what size bed do you have? 

any siblings?

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

favorite snapchat filter? 

favorite makeup brand(s)

how many times a week do you shower?

favorite tv show?

shoe size?

how tall are you?

sandals or sneakers? 

do you go to the gym? 

describe your dream date

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

what color socks are you wearing? 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

do you have a job? what do you do? 

how many friends do you have? 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

3 favorite boy names

3 favorite girl names

favorite actor? 

favorite actress? 

who is your celebrity crush?

favorite movie? 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

money or brains? 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

how many times have you been to the hospital?

top 10 favorite songs

do you take any medications daily? 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

what is your biggest fear? 

how many kids do you want? 

whats your go to hair style?

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

who is your role model? 

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

what is your dream car? 

opinion on smoking?

do you go to college? 

what is your dream job? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

do you have freckles? 

do you smile for pictures?

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

have you ever peed in the woods? 

do you still watch cartoons? 

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Favorite dipping sauce? 

what do you wear to bed? 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

 what are your hobbies?

can you draw? 

do you play an instrument?

what was the last concert you saw? 

tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

do you want to get married?

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

what color looks best on you? 

do you miss anyone right now? 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

do you believe in ghosts?

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

last person you called`

favorite ice cream flavor? 

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

what shirt are you wearing? 

what is your phone background?

are you outgoing or shy?

do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you like your neighbors? 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

have you ever been high? 

have you ever been drunk? 

last thing you ate? 

favorite lyrics right now

summer or winter? 

day or night? 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

favorite month? 

what is your zodiac sign

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

[words-writ-in-starlight]

*kicks down your door* YOU'RE REQUESTING ASKS IN FANDOMS AND I'M IN 3/4 OF THEM AND TWO ARE VERY OBSCURE AND I THINK THAT'S VERY CASH MONEY OF YOU. ahem. 1, 2, 3, and 7 for jame, with extra credit if at least one is fluffy?? (look i know me my source material but also let her be happy!! for five seconds!!)

My week got hectic so I am returning to this ask meme mmmmm A LITTLE LATE, and I think that is very on brand.  For this ask meme!

1) Their physical weak spots

Jame has the massive advantage of dwar sleep, so that old injuries don’t often leave weaknesses to be targeted later.  Instead, her greatest physical weakness isn’t a single spot, nothing that she can fix or strengthen or make disappear.  It’s just--Jame is small.  Even for a Highborn, she’s delicately built, bird-boned, and among Kendar she looks like a wide-eyed hungry child.  Taken off-guard, or facing an enemy she isn’t willing to kill, Jame is acutely aware of the way that her stature puts her at an acute disadvantage.  And she knows, she knows, that no matter how much she trains, no matter how much Shanir power she throws into a fight, she’s just always going to be...small.  

Anyone who knows Jame would be shocked to hear that she thinks about this.  She might have to look up at anyone else at Tentir, but if there’s one word they wouldn’t dare ascribe to her--certainly not in her hearing--it would be small.

2) Their emotional/moral weak spots

At the end of the day, Jame is always ready to put her life on the line for what she believes.  Putting her peoples’ lives on the line, or gambling their welfare on her own decisions...not so much.  Sometimes this means she’s careful with them.  Other times, this means she’s so paralyzed by the potential fallout that she doesn’t make any decisions at all, and they all pay the price together.  This isn’t really a headcanon, it’s sort of a major plot engine in Gates of Tagmeth, among others, but I’m still real invested in Jame’s plot being less “gain power, fight evil” and more “make connections and learn to direct power away from collateral damage.”

In terms of strict headcanon, I will die on the hill of Jame’s best-hidden emotional weakness being that she wants a home and family that loves her.  She’ll barely even admit it to herself, how deep that craving runs--if she did, she would be faced with a sudden onslaught of grief that she sort of doubts she’d even survive.  Her departed mother, her mad father, her terrified brother, her near-miss-consort-uncle, her Senethari-uncle, her sadist half-brother...if Jame sits and tallies up everyone who hated her, everyone who abandoned her, everyone who died on her, whether they meant to do it or not, she thinks she might never trust the Kencyrath again.  But she does, every time, because she wants it.  She wants to be at home in Gothregor, the stronghold of her house, she wants warmth and welcome and all the things that go with a family.  The Master almost brought her down twice with that longing.  Jame thinks, sometimes, privately, that she understands the Dreamweaver better than she likes--Tori, coming to her with open arms and a soft smile, could convince her to do many things.

3) Scars or painful spots

Jame knows that it’s not obvious.  She knows that Kencyrs have scars.  She knows that she’ll probably die with far more than a single straight scar, healed by the finest healer on Rathillien.

But she hates the scar on her cheekbone.  It says helpless and prisoner and worthless, and she knows that Kallystine desperately overstepped her bounds by laying hands on her, she saw Torisen repudiate the woman on behalf of both of them, but....  Jame still hates the scar.

7) Their tickle spots

Everyone wants FLUFF, so listen, here is the fluff:

Jame and Tori have identical ticklish spots, under their ribs, behind their knees, and, with a light enough touch, the nape of their necks.  As children, in the dark of the moon as they waited up to see if the world would end, they would prod fingers into sensitive spots to win giggles, and shush each other in hisses and whispers as they scuffled.  They matched, in this as in everything, and that meant an uncanny advantage of being able to see and strike for openings while the other person was moving.